A new Step

Fishing day out

2011-03-28T20:07:00.000+10:00

Yesterday, went to sea world but my friend couldn't get in and another friend's VIP card got confiscated~ not so lucky day. Hence, I didn't get to go in and play too. After that, we went to a fishing spot near the beach and a big ship, and started fishing. Initially, I was reluctant to go and fish because it is very hot and sunny. About 3-4 pm when it wasn't that sunny... I actually went out into the sea and cast the fishing rod out and caught myself some fishes~ It was really fun! But only caught really tiny fishes~ hehehe. After that, dinner time at a japanese restaurant "sakuraya" and bought alcohol back to the resort and played dices and after that slept till the next morning.

Today, just played at sea world after breakfast at McDonalds. But the weather today is really killing me. One minute, its raining, the next its burning hot~ I think my headache right at this moment come from the rapidly changing weather~ I need a shower and a facial to be done now and relax myself so I don't get sick. I should really stop going out to play so much! Ah.. but I just can't resist fun stuff~

Angel?

2011-03-26T11:57:00.000+10:00

Yesterday, I forgot to blog because I was so exhausted~ I slept around 3/4 am the other night and woke up around 6am because I got a call from work asking if i could work at 7am. Then I had to wake up and go to work. I had a great time at work as one of the old lady that I was taking care of, keep calling me an angel and saying that god has sent an angel to her. I think that it is really cute of her. Although I just feel like this is what I'm suppose to do to take care of patients. I do think that I handle older patients better than younger ones although younger patients are usually more independent and would be able to do things by themselves. Which means I don't have to do anything for them.

Then I came home and shower, then play mahjong till 11pm. Had supper, then sleep. Really did zonked out when I got into my bed. The next thing I know, its 11 am already, and I'm sitting her blogging. Thinking what I will do today, looking out the window, the weather looked so good (for some people), sunny and HOT. That is not really my definition of good weather~ Maybe I should do some washing and then internet shopping for some clothes. hehe.. then will be going over to a friend's place tonight~

Another Day

2011-03-25T01:59:00.000+10:00

Today, when I woke up, it's already 2.30pm! Half the day is gone. Life is really this short,~ another day wasted! After a few more hours, day light is gone and night is up. Although I don't really like the sun, but there is really nothing you can do at night and time goes faster at night (just a feeling). Work didn't call, hence I spend the rest of the day and night at home rearranging all my clothes and my room. After that, drama time again. Really, the thing I do most in a day is spending time watching other people act a life in a story. Sometimes, I really wish to live like the people in the movies. You can have many different roles in different drama/ movies, you can have many different types of jobs and different types of feelings.

Life is like a play- we merley go through stages of our life acting it out -Shakespere. I feel like its true, but I wish that there are stages that we can skip through when we do not like it. Stages like, looking for jobs especially. Why can't jobs be available just for anyone that wants to work? Who can give me some ideas?

Easygoing

2011-03-23T03:16:00.000+10:00

Was very stressed out this morning when I forgot to bring my passport to my medical check. Then my lovely little brother drive from home and bring my passport out for me. Since then, life is pretty lay back. Did a little shopping (didn't buy stuff) but still I spend money. Living in Australia, spending money is super quick! Before you know it, you would realize that your wallet is empty again and you need to reach for the ATM.

Dinner at home tonight is very good! Had eggs, beef, lamb and chicken! Full meal course. Hahaha. Then Daph (new and close friend) introduced me a new website for online shopping for clothes. Fun... means money going outwards again.

Tonight, we then went to the movies. Watched Battle in LA. The movie is not that bad just a little exageratting especially aliens are made from machines. Came home and had some green bean soup as supper dessert~, shower, blogging, then it will be bed time for me. Life is just easygoing today. But working with agency is a little stressed thinking they might call me in 3 hrs time and wants me to go to work. So, I better go to bed now just in case that happens. Talk about my brain and thinking tomorrow... too tired to think now.. =D

Turning Over a New Leaf

2011-03-21T21:19:00.000+10:00

How many days has it been since I have written in my blog? 2-3 days maybe. Since I finished my Ielts and didn't have the mood to be bloging anymore as I used to blog because I wanted to improve my English writting. Well, I'm glad it is over but I'm sure I didn't do well at it at all. There are a lot of things I missed and couldn't think of. But there is nothing much I can do now. Just move foward and sulk thinking I could have done better. That is what us humans would think when something goes wrong or does not go according to what we planned.

Hence, I'm turning over a new leaf. Yesterday, I cleaned the whole apartment. The couch, under the couch, the coffee table, under the coffee table, the living room, the dining area, and most importantly my room; all nice and neat now. Now, I'm starting to wonder, how long will this last? I'm hoping it will last for a long time. I'm pretty proud of myself seeing that this is my 1st time cleaning and arranging this apartment and with so many things they still can look pretty neat. *laughs*

From now onwards, I will try my best to be more disciplined and more hardworking than before. I will too try my best to play more and make full use of my time. Last but not least, I do need to start studying and making up for all the things that I slack off and didn't study when I was back at uni and now.. need to start applying theory into real life. Wish me luck guys~

Future Plans

2011-03-21T20:15:00.000+10:00

On the 17th March, I went to hang out with my group of friends whom I haven't met for quite sometime. Hanging out with them makes me feel like I am me, and I'm not the only one who are facing problems in my nursing career. Some of them have funny stories from their workplace. Some just are just like me. Eventhough I have my exam coming up in 2 days, I still can't stop listening and talking to them. I just feel that the exam does not exist anymore although I did kept thinking about it, but i just won't take the book out and read.

Following on, my best friend's brother bought a land and currently finished making the plan of how the house would look like. Then, all of a sudden, I have the urge to buy a house too, thinking of what it will be like to live in a neighbourhood of people that are your best friends and colleauges. Isn't that cool? Scanning through all the beautiful pics and decorations and designs, imagining myself living in a beautiful home like that would really be a dream come true. But looking at the price of the house is a nightmare that I have to go through to have a dream come true. Why can't money just fall from the sky? Why must there be an existence of money? It is so clear to me now why people can have depression over small little matters.

Sitting on the fence

2011-03-17T00:38:00.001+10:00

Today, I sat outside QUT at the Garden's Point Campus in the city. Looking at the students walking past me smiling and chatting with their friends brought back memories of my own personal experience when I was studying in Uni. But I couldn't forget the times that I struggled to meet deadlines of assignments, staying till late at night in uni and the preparation of exams, eventhough, I could remember that I didn't put a lot of effort into studying when I am suppose to (I'm a last minute person). Maybe this is just me. I just couldn't put my concentration into studying or studying is just not for me. Come to think of it, if I could turn back time, I would probably enjoy uni more now. But thinking of going back to uni to study again scares me too. Because, if things don't go well, I might need to go back to uni to do Masters. Now I feel like im sitting on a fence as I couldn't choose which side of the fence I want to get off and land in. But I do know, either sides will have challenges that I have to go through in order to reach my goal.

In order to reach my goals either ways, I have to change. I cannot expect people to change for me as its not their problem that I'm like this. I just have to pick myself up and crawl my way through the mess that I have caused. I could only blame myself for not waking up early enough to realize all of this. In the end, I will have to thank all the people who supported me and wake me up from my childish doings. From now onwards, I will earn heaps of money and use my time to the fullest as I have really realize now, life is really too short to sit around waiting for things to happen. When you want to do something, don't dream, take action and your dream will come true. I have got to go back to studying for my exam will be back tomorrow. Cheers.

If there is an if only

2011-03-16T05:04:00.001+10:00

At this very moment, I haven't gone to bed yet. I just got lectured by a person about me, my life, my path and my plans. It has been a little to much and I havent been able to absorb in all into my brain. A very unorganized person like me is going to take alot of effort to get organized. If only I would only take more intrest in what I want to do and what I'm planning to do and plan it properly. I believe that I have not learned how to take a step into the real world. I feel so alone at this very moment not knowing what am I suppose to do and feeling that no one is actually listening to what I really want to achieve in life. As those who heard what I want will say that I'm not on the right track and what I want and think is wrong. It is not that I do not like money or earn money. But at this moment I feel to messed up to have anything to be done properly. What I really want is just some time! Although I know too that I'm not young anymore to be childish. Most or all of the people will be thinking that I'm just looking for excuses and that I'm trying to run away from difficult times. True... I always find excuses but is anyone able to understand that it is very difficult for a person like me to do things without support? I have fear for what I'm doing or what I'm about to do..am I right or not?I do not know anymore.. But I do believe that God have sent alot of angels around me to help and support me over the past 3 years. Maybe that is why I have been so dependent on them. Or maybe this is just another excuse from me for not wanting to face the truth or fact that I'm not capable of doing things properly on my own. If only I would be more organized and planned! Things and all might work out very differently right now... If only ...

Stress?

2011-03-15T15:43:00.001+10:00

Today, I do not know what to write yet. Maybe it will come along later as I type along. Now the top on my worry list is getting a band 8 in my General Ielts Exam this coming saturday. The pressure is now on me. I will not deny that I do not know much about the world and what is happening to the economy of the countries in the world. But that does not mean I'm not competent in my English writing and usage of English.

Maybe some will ask why would I need to sit for this exam? To apply for PR is the answer, but why would I want to be a PR in Australia? The answer is, Since I have studied here for 3 years. Why not? The other question is, if it takes this much effort and time with stress with a deadline to meet. Will it be worth it? Will I be using the PR here? Will I stay here for a long time? Will I plant my roots here? Will this place be the place I will want to stay? This I have no answer to, hence I'm struggling to apply PR before the deadline. Which all seems impossible to be happening within 3 months.

Now, at this time, I should be practicing my writing skills. Just as I read the question, my mind went blank and I could only think, I want to read the answers now because I can't write anything and I don't know how to write it. Even with blogging, I could only write about.... basically, nothing. This is all for now, maybe will write again later if I found something to write about.

Returning to blogging

2011-03-14T16:37:00.006+10:00

Hi, I don't know who are still keeping up with blogging or reading blogs but I'm sure I wasn't. Time has passed and I haven't blogged for almost three years, I suppose.

Recently, I have received emails about people who commented on my old post which leads me to reading my own old blogs. I have realized that they were very bad blogs. Hahaha. The other reason that brings me back to blogging is because that I feel there is a need to practice my English as I will be sitting for my IELTS exam for the 4th time. A friend told me that by blogging I can improve my English writing or composition I guess.

Up to this state, I have a lot of ideas of what I want to write and have a lot of interesting stories to tell. There is just too much that I can't get them in order and put them in proper words and sentences. Or maybe i don't have proper or good enough vocabulary to describe the actual feeling and happenings. I have been in a lot of dilemma and seems like there are a lot of things disturbing me. Or maybe I'm just not organized enough and too lazy.

Up to this date, I'm still very dependent on everyone and everything around me. I still don't or can't make up my mind and make a decision in my life and a path I would like to take. Some people have a goal in their life and make their way through it through rocks and pebbles. I do have a goal or you should say, TOO many goals in life that i want to achieve, but in what way to achieve them? I don't know. As I have just mentioned, maybe I depend on other people to achieve what I want and thinking they will help me to do so.

Things and thoughts and life has been going through my head at this moment. I do not deny that I love to spend time doing unproductive things like watching movies, dramas, going to theme parks, parties, clubbing, the beach and hanging out with my friends a lot. If it is possible, I hope to do that everyday, but I also know that is "impossible" as I'm not one of those lucky people who can do so. I know I need to work to survive and live on while doing things that I want to do. Hence, my feeling at the moment is..... 24 hrs a day is not enough at all especially I love to spend time sleeping too.

Sometimes I just wish life could be much simpler than this. I'm not going through depression just laziness..... Hahaha.. Will try to write tomorrow again.

Soi~esT Day In Aus

2007-10-11T21:23:00.000+10:00

I will explain when im free....=p

I

2007-09-30T01:43:00.000+10:00

For the last few weeks, i had exams to study and make-up to and was very lazy~~Since i have taken quite a few pictures to show~ I might as well blog!! =P.These pictures are taken on the 28th of August 2007. Its taken at the Brisbane River (the bridge there) during the night, when it is said that there will be the red moon!! And We REALLY see the RED MOON!!^^

This is the colour of the moon when we arrived at the river~ Ain't it BeaUtiFuL!

This is when the moon turns red~ (didn't get a close up view like the last one,i wonder why)(?.?)

Me and aMy~ (Don't know why she did that face) O_o

SaLLy, Me AnD AmY! (Say Cheese)

This is table in the library taken 1hr before my LSB182 exam. (I wonder who know what subject is that~)><"

Me~Trying to study. But distracted when taking pictures and started to get vain! xP

Since I'm living alone~ i have done most of my shopping alone too..(very sad eh....) Whatever that i see is nice...then i will start considering...whether i should buy or not~=PThere is this time i bought a small box of strawberries for the second time~(cos its on special price), the taste of it is...........(">.<") (<------like that, very sour). With the website my friend gave me~~ i tried to do a strawberry salad! but to disappointment~ most of the salads...i don't have the ingredients. Finally, i came up with a solution!! MY OWN salad menu! With really simple ingredients!

This is the picture before mixing the salad.

This is after mixing the salad~ Does it Look YummY? It does Taste Good, for me. ^^

This is taken in the library, planning to study for the practical exam on Friday!Does look like a very hardworking table right?xD

Last Week, after the semester-break starts, i was looking everywhere for jobs. Then i remember that my friend, Tiki , said he knows a Chinese restaurant who always need people. I decided to give it a try although the pay is low. Its better than sitting at home, not doing anything and lazing around. xD (that is what kind of person i am). And think on the bright side~ I might get to slim down.(^~^) Its on a Saturday, and i got the off-peak ticket and went to the city. There, i realize.. i FORGOT TO BRING MY RESUME. Rushed to the campus in city and quickly print out a resume!*phew*

Its taken before going out to meet my friend, Tiki. (Maybe that is why i forgot my resume)

We went to submit my resume and did a little shopping. I bought a casual shirt(pink in colour) so that i could use it IF i get a job that needs casual shirt. I guess i did bore him a little!! Then we decided to go for dinner~ since i got the off-peak ticket, might as well go to some place new to eat instead of the city! So.. We took the bus to West End (The name of a place: something like chinatown, etc. Not practically West End) Walk around West End, for sometime then finally settle down to a Vietnamese restaurant? to eat~^^Went back to the city, got some dessert and walked to the bus stop.( We are catching the same bus home,he lives nearby.)

Boring at home.....How do i look in glasses??

Can you see the waves in my hair??

Getting vainer these days~~HAHAHA..I still went to sleep-over party at my friends house but i haven't got hold of the pictures yet. And.. the Chinese restaurant asked me to try-out for the work last Thursday. I find the job quite easy, but really confusing when there is a lot of people coming at one time and trying to serve them as fast as possible.@_@.No worries, i know i will get the hang of it in NO TIME!! xD ( Seems very confident, actually very worried). That's all for now~~ it's also very late already~ tomorrow i got a group workshop that i need to attend!! haihz...n the presentation is on this coming Wednesday!! Pray for me ...won't cha~ It's THREE days to go...and... i still don't have much idea what to DO!!

WhAt i Did~~

2007-09-07T00:52:00.000+10:00

WeLL, yesterday i brought my lappy to uni ...i was waitting for "MY FRIEND" (she shud feel the sting.)to on9...but never appear!! Grrr....well.. thn i have to carry my lappy wherever i went~~so heavy!! haihz..althou its small...its so heavy!! (o isit tat im just lazy?) maybe~~ xP I went to submit resume today to some shops and cafe...but i think the possibility of getting the job is quite low~well..if i start working..thn i wnt have much time to on9 n blog n chat..which is quite sad ..T__T. But think on the bright side...got extra cash to use!! ^^ but i cant use the internet access to the fullest will be a waste thou~~cos im paying AUD 30 per mth for 2Gb of internet access per week (not including the phone line). i dont like to waste~~ so i would usually use it to the max!! ^^

I came home quite late last nite~~so did some simple cooking~~had beef steak~~ xP

simply cook de...looks good ma??YummY YummY steak~~>.<"

special shaped strawberry~~looks like a big nose!! ^^

Today, i went to the campus near the city for class. Then went to the city to submit a resume again...after tat ..got an ice-cream from Hungry Jack for Aud o.40!! (very cheap!!) On the way walking home~~i was with my friend...n saw~~~

SOooo BeaUtiFuL!!! xP (Street flowers)

This is a closer up view~ ^^

Same species but different colour...which is nicer??

Me n the "Lu Shan De Ye Hua" xP

The flower has no smell~~ ='(

This is mY new PreTty friend!! Same Course As me..live Near Me also ..^^ Lucky leh~~

FaTTeR & FaTTeR

2007-09-03T23:30:00.000+10:00

I am getting fatter & fatter each day~~ and do you want to know why??

Let me show you WHY~~

Taken When I am cooking!! Who can recognizes the chopstick??

One Whole Pot of Pasta!! Just Finish Cooking it!!

This is all i am eating today!!Hopefully~~

Now do u all know why i am getting fatter?? Lazy to cook...and pasta is the easiest to cook!! Esp those in packets!! Well...i used to eat one whole pot of it!! but today i gotta cut it down...><" (because getting fat). *Chomp Chomp* eating while writing this~~

Now i feel so sleepy already. BUT i CANNOT SLEEP!! must not!! because one of my friend "wu gui" said " If u sleep after you eat, it will cause indigestion and the fats that are not broken down will be stored under your skin forever!!" which means you can never get rid of it. T__T

^^ GueSs WhO??

2007-09-03T03:06:00.001+10:00

HeY... I'm BacK into blogging!!...But i'm still very lazy to blog!(what am i trying to say??) Things are still very incredible to me ! (^^,) its because i still can't believe that I'm in Brisbane for like almost 60 days already! I wonder who will be missing ME?? Not much people i guess... But i do really appreciate all of the people that come to see me off at the airport! *arigatoo gozaimasu* I miss ya oL very MucH!! and i still can remember vividly the things that happened on that day before boarding the plane. I was fighting in a war, against excess luggage!! (>.<"). Hehehe. And when i was on the plane having a headache, i still can't believe that im on a plane ALONE flying to BRISBANE. =_=" I reach the place where i am suppose to stay for 6 months (on contract, if not i would have moved out by now) at 4am in the morning. I did a little unpacking, fixed my bed, and sleep. I didn't sleep much i think ...because i wake up around 11am plus, then i decided to do some exploring alone I met some one on the way out and decided to ask where can i get a "sim card". They just told me that i need to go to the city to but them. So...I don't know what happen to me. The next thing i know is that i am at the bus stop waiting for the bus. When i got on the bus, the bus driver asked me "single? daily? adult or concession?". (i am at a state which has no idea how the bus systems work in Brisbane and i don't know what does concession means!!) xP. I answered, "Single adult!" (which means i got the more expensive ticket) I reached the city, I was like in Chinese "luan da luan juang" which means something like simply bump here bump there. I was almost lost, and totally have no idea how to go back home. And the best thing to do ...is ASK!! ^^ and.....finally i got home!!<> ^^ Something more interesting happened the next day!! I need to go to a campus near the city, which i don't know where. I planned to walk to the Uni,(which i don't know where) to take the free shuttle bus, which directly goes to the other campus in the city. But on the way, i stopped and asked a guy (from china) if he knows where QUT is and how long will it take to walk there? He said, around 20 - 30 minutes. I was shocked!!! the agent who helped me rented this place said that it will only takes around 10-15 minutes walk to the Uni!! =,=||| I got on the bus with the chinese guy from china,(he is going to the city) and he told me where to get off the bus to go to the Uni... (and i didn't get to know his name~~) =( 5 minutes later, i got off the bus. Back to square 1!! Lost again!! (thinking.."where am i now?? which way i need to take to go to uni??My God!! please help me") Prayers were answered!! ^^ another guy came towards asking me where i am going. *blur blur* "follow me, he said, im going to the same Uni."He explained how he know that i wanted to go uni, its because he overheard my conversation with the china guy. xD *kinda glad that he is willing to help me out* On the very same day, i get to know another girl which is also from china. Doing the same course as me..in the same semester and coincidently.... living near where i am staying!! Surprising?? Well...she is my new BF (Best Friend) here.. i still got a few BF widely spread!! ^^ u know who you are!! Other than that... i know the way to walk to Uni already..^^ but it takes around 30 minutes!! Grrr...>.< That misleading website!!! should have sue the website!! Is going to make me suffer for 6 months!! Anyway, can undo what is done....might as well just accept my fate!! In the first place i think it will be ok to take it as an exercise to slim down la... T__T buuutttt...... who knows... Y-Y..... im getting a whole lots of muscles instead!! and looks fatter now...haihzz Things just come and go...6 weeks have passed. Thats when all my assignments WERE due!! That is why im free to write a new blog now!! But there were things that have happened in between also. I think i will just skip all those... if not..i wont be able to finish this blog tonight! ^^ ..well..not alot happened also la... Hm... Recall.. Went to a party for new students ( had 2 drinks), went to my best friend bridging ( had a few drinks)*blur, then Ladies Night (had 2 drinks)*no effect, lost my malaysia IC, then found it back, went to CCM ( christian campus movement)* get to know alot of new friends<> =P Well well... the latest news is that...last night i went to the city!! there is a festival going on..which is called the Brisbane River Festival i think...i have taken some really lovely pictures!!....well at least i think they are really nice la... you see then u tell me nice o not!! Ok!!^^

This have the fireworks into the shape of heart<> xD

Another of the heart shape fireworks!! Just that the lamp post are in the way!! I really like the colour ... It has a very nice purple!!

Just Nice!! This is almost the end of the firework!!

Fireworks behind the casino!!

This is Brisbane Largest Casino.... Nice?? Well...i guess thats all for now, i have got class tomorrow. and its very late already!! I blog again when i have the time!! Cya!! Don't forget to Miss Me Oh!!~^^